I’m a planner, some have called me a control freak! I like to know what direction my life is going in and what we are working towards, I even set myself goals. Darren and I have had many conversations where do you see us in five, ten, twenty years…
Since the realisation that autism is now part of our lives looking into our future upsets me, my bad, sad days. I have lots of questions about Ethan’s future that I would love answered, will Ethan ever talk? Will he ever call me mummy/tell me he loves me? Will he be able to hold down a job? Will he be able to live an independent life? Will he ever be loved or have a family of his own? Will we be able to cope? My list goes on and on.
The fact of the matter is no one knows what the future holds for us. No one knows what Ethan’s full potential is. I have to learn how to live in the moment and take each day one at a time as you never know what tomorrow will bring, a concept that is completely alien to me!
Today saw the very sad loss of a friend which again proves that life is too short and there is no point stressing about things that we can’t control.
If 2013 teaches me anything it will be Live For Today and I’m sure that many of my friends and family will agree with this as this year is definitely throwing things our way that we were never expecting.