For the past few weeks I have felt a bit down because of autism. It’s more a wallow in self pity type of down, but down nonetheless. It’s not that I want to change Ethan, I have always said autism is part of Ethan’s personality that makes him who he is. I just wish that he could talk to me.
I have had endless discussions with the professionals I have met telling me I have to change my mindset. It’s not about talking, it’s about communication. I know all this and I try to stay positive. I also know that slowly, very slowly, we are learning to communicate with Ethan. We had his team around the child meeting this week and everyone was very pleased with his progress.
That doesn’t stop the green eyed monster creeping in every now and then. I don’t know what set it off, perhaps that Ethan is trying really hard to communicate with us recently and I find myself saying everyday ‘I don’t know what you are saying’, or just seeing a child in the street talking to their mother. The autism journey really is a roller-coaster ride of emotions, and one I’m sure I’m not going to get off of soon!
To lift my mood I wanted to capture a moment that always brightens my day. Ethan has always liked looking at his books and since he started to babble he has read them aloud to us in his own special way.
Ethan may well be non-verbal but he sure does know how to make a lots of noise!